Changes

Well after the surge in gas prices and the flight fares for not only Cali, but everywhere going sky high, my plans for heading out there in October are cancelled. I've been fighting the idea of cancelling it for about a month now, but kept trying to talk myself into it. I miss my friends something awful, but when it comes right down to it. I just cannot afford a 400 plane ticket and thats just for me....not including B. Hopefully over the first of the year, I can check into it and make plans to come to Cali then, since we know after recent news, Hawaii is cancelled until further notice. Thats ok..whatever is meant to be will be.
I had 3 different occasions to purchase tickets and everytime something happened that prevented me from doing so. I'm taking that as a sign....another time will arise and hopefully B and I will make it then.
In a way I'm releaved, because there were some people I just was not looking forward to seeing after everything that has gone on and I think we need to move on...even friendship is not on my agenda any longer. Being used for when you feel the need to "get together" is just not right and sorry, I'm just not available any longer, nor for anyone else I have recently met. Friendship or even a new relationship is a two way streak, not me finding you online or via the phone and feeling like I have to tow the entire conversation continually. I'm wasting energy that can be used elsewhere.
So..K?? Find me online or you know the number..give me a holler and I'll explain more.
Love ya and miss ya too!!! ((((HUGS))))